One of the best things about becoming a yarn-head is the community (or cult) you become part of. Yarn connects us all, but as I have connected with more people it is their biographies that are so interesting. So many yarn folk are managing stressful personal situations or chronic illness. All of them have big hearts and keep an eye on others more than themselves. They are crazy. Many (if not most) are tattooed and / or pierced. Every one has an eccentric side. Every one is incredibly vulnerable.
This is probably true of everyone, but I don’t make this level of connection with other people. Other people are more guarded or care more about maintaining a particular impression. Yarn folk aren’t scared to be judged, it seems. They open up, and they wrap others in love. In my other world or work people are bruised, insecure and defensive. They don’t let others in easily. They are judgmental, and often a tiny bit paranoid.
You all know I get wound up by work. We all do in different ways but I don’t always manage stress in the ways that proper people who do my job are supposed to – I swear in my office, get sad, beat myself up over trivia and convince myself I shouldn’t be doing what I do. I always assumed I was good at concealing this from others though. Last week, however, a random yarn friend, someone who only knows me from my Facebook posts about yarn, messaged me out of the blue. It was just a single line email to tell me something positive about how they saw me. That was it. Apparently I needed to know, and she wasn’t wrong. But how she knew that in that moment I needed that little injection of happy, I just don’t know.
Today, I opened the first packages in two different advent yarn boxes I received in the post. One I expected, the other I had no memory of ordering. I was confused but assumed that in a moment of tiredness and weakness I must have ordered it and forgotten about it. I hadn’t, it was an unsolicited gift from another yarn friend.
People with the highest mountains to climb and the broadest shoulders have the biggest hearts. Thank you both.